I walk into a room filled with people that I do not know at all, and my mind freezes. “What if they do not like me? What if I am too weird or something and they end up talking about me behind my back?” These thoughts circle in my head as I find a seat next to a few familiar faces and a few that I am not sure I know.
Some of my friends talk to me a little, but when it comes to the other people at the table, I freak out and don’t want to say something that I will later regret. Talking to people is not something that I like doing all of the time because I do not want them to hate me.
After that night, I realized that any time I speak in public or just talk to people, I get this feeling like there are a million knots in my stomach. I did not want people to hate me or think anything other than good thoughts about me.
One day I was scrolling through Pinterest when I came across a post about different types of anxiety. In the article, there was a paragraph about social anxiety, and when I read the section, it sounded like it was describing me. I decided to research social anxiety some more to see what it all consists of in terms that make sense.
While researching, I found out that social anxiety is the fear of social situations where other people are involved. Social anxiety is also the fear of being negatively judged and evaluated by other people.
I struggle with social anxiety, but even though that is something that I have, I do not let it stop me from doing the different activities that I love to do. I have been getting better in dealing with various social situations, but I do not think I will ever be fully open to going into social situations with the confidence that I would like to have. And you know what? That is fine.
Social anxiety will not get in the way of living my dreams and accomplishing anything I set my mind to. It might be something I struggle with and it might not, but either way, it will not stop me. For others who also suffer from social anxiety, don’t let it get in your way, either. Be unstoppable.